A break down story

About a week and half ago, I broke down. I was totally and completely overwhelmed with everything in my life. From work, to family, to friends, to all things personal, Satan really got the best of me and I just lost it. (I thank God for a friend that was there at just the right moment and brought me exactly what I needed to recoup.) I knew that I was on my way to a break down, but I have yet to learn how to stop the process of a break down. someday.

As I have just become vulnerable with the whole world by posting this blog, I'm so much ok with that. Why? Because I'm a Christian. But don't Christians have it all together? you ask yourself. No!

Guess what? Being a Christian doesn't mean the hard times will go away. In fact, it's Biblically know that they will come! James reminds us to "Consider it all joy, my brethern, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance." (James 1:2-3) My faith has certainly been tested and I'm feeling the work of building endurance as I type this. We know that when we endure under the trials we will "be approved and receive the crown of life which the Lord promises to those who love Him." (James 1:12) 

Guess what else? Christians are not perfect. If we were, we wouldn't need a Savior. 

Really. What is the purpose of a perfect and Holy Savior if I have it all figured out? He becomes nothing if I know everything and have it all together. I don't, so it's a good thing I have a Savior who knows it all. Jesus Himself makes this very clear to us: "It is not those who are healthy who need a physician, but those who are sick" (Matthew 9:12). I'm sick, aren't we all? I need a Savior, don't we all.

During the break down, God held me all the way. He is still holding me. He's never let me go, even when I scream and try to twist myself out of His grip, He says: "No, Shelly, no! I love you, and you aren't getting away! Never! So stop trying." 

AMAZING. Simply amazing. 

LOVE. Simply Love.